June 26th

13 days nlang pala, 36 na ako. I don't even know how to feel. My life still feels empty, with the exception of my daughter's presence. She will always be the glue holding me together, pero outside of being her mother, wala. Sino na ako ngayon? Ano na narating ko? Sa dami na ng pinagdaanan at natutunan ko for the past 36 years, wala paring nararating buhay ko? It's like no matter how hard I try to climb out of the depressing dips in my wheel of life, lagi parin akong bumabagsak at naiistuck sa baba. Nakakaumay. Nakakapagod. Nakakasawa. Parang ayoko na mag birrhday pa. Parang lang. Syempre kailangan ko parin mag birthday, kasi kailangan ako ng anak ko. Hays. Anyway, pasensya po sa dramarama. Hope everyone has a good day ahead. Apaka init na naman, don't forget to drink lots of water! Hydrate ladies. Ciao