at a crossroads

my bf and i haven been together for almost 5 years. kami yung couple na hindi dumaan sa typical na ligawan stage. we became good friends. then, one day we professed our love for each other so we became a thing. our relationship had its share of ups and downs. ilang beses na rin kami muntikang maghiwalay but at the end of the day we chose each other and held on to love. medyo complicated yung relationship namin. we had to keep it a secret for some reason. (hindi po ako kabit, ok? haha) we had our careers and family among other things... kaya kami yung couple who would openly talk about the end of our relationship. yung tipong tanggap namin na hindi kami magkakatuluyan pero mahal namin ang isa't-isa. sabi nga namin "kung tayo ang itinadhana, we'll always find our way back to each other." cheesy no? pero that's how open we are to that possibility. now, we find ourselves at that point. facing a crossroad before us. the past year medyo shakey na rin talaga relationship namin. last week, we both snapped and haven't talked since. ako yung tao na ma pride, but i'm willing to set aside pride instead of living a life of regrets. so i reached out to him a couple of times, not to get back with him but to have a talk. gusto kong maging disente at maayos yung paghihiwalay namin. but, he kept on making excuses and even not reading my message. it just feels weird... alam ko naman na darating ang puntong to sa buhay namin. pero ang hirap pala. ang sakit lalo na if the person you loved isn't willing to give you a decent closure that you both talked about and agreed on. skl this heavy weight i've been carrying for about a week. to deload bago humarap ulit sa realidad ng buhay this week. salamat ulit sa pakikinig [pagbabasa]. ♡

• breakup
• relationship
• love