out of the blue thoughts...(day 1)

I've been very distant na sa mga friends and even best friends ko almost a year na because of the traits they have na i feel like it's toxic for me like Mataas ang tingin nila sa sarili(and what i mean by that it's not confidence but pride na they put others down or even give up priorities just because nakikita nilang mas better sila), felt like they befriended me for convenience or pity (they have their own circles and when they see me parang ginagawa akong saling pusa *I'm grateful but it hurts as tahimik na tao*), they pick friends or circles for the aesthetic (yes may ganito sa gen z, and heck i don't know how they work things out as a group of friends),They cry on your shoulders over a toxic partner and get back to it (Ako yung napagod)...İs it right that pinili ko dumistansya kahit ako na lang mag Isa? because if staying to that environment means friendship i don't even know if I'm true to my self or anyone