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I have a current boyfriend, 1 year na kmi, hindi boto family nya sakin, they still root for the ex gf instead, then my bf went with me sa place ko, he's from manila, so andito kmi ngayon sa hometown ko, he has work nmn, pero we usually have arguments, tas nasusumbat ko sa kanya yung bad experience ko sa family nila, I couldn't bring myself to forgive them kaya siguro nabubunton ko sa kanya yung galit ko, and I just recently saw him texting with his ex, saying na he wanted to go back home, but hindi pa enough yung money na natitipon nya, si ate gurl nmn nag offer na sya na daw bahala for the fare home, and I'm like bitch wtf? Okay, ako nmn i felt cheated so I turned into creating account sa dating apps, it was like my way of telling myself na kaya ko kahit umuwi mn sya, o mag get back together sa ex nya, toxic i know, but I didn't know how to cope with my pride and ego hurt. Now, I have a foreigner na willing magpropose sakin and gives me allowance, but my bf sensing na I'm getting emotionally independent, nakipag ayos sakin. I still love him so I agreed. I'm confused and I know my decisions are a bit stupid but duh for the plot 😂 anywho, help me clear my mind, sino ang pipiliin ko? Sa foreigner, I can live with ease, but sa bf ko ngayon, idk I'm comfortable with him nmn and I don't have to worry about girls, and we talked about his ex already, idk what to do 😵