I wish I valued myself more

Marriage is not a joke. If you think that you only need to deal with his breath, hygiene, getting old, and the rest is etc... You're seriously naive. Been married for several years now made me realize that no matter how small it is. It will eventually matter. Especially, when you're tired. Sister, we're all human beings. We WILL GET TIRED, especially when you get kids. The worst part is when your finances affect your lives. I never saw myself as a RK(rich kid), but I realize why old people made such a big deal out of a man's status. My husband for the first 4 years hounded me like I'm some witch. He always made me feel like I'm the biggest mistake because of my preferences in life. And that hurt so much... Whenever we fight or argue, I feel like I'm never enough or accepted. Although we are sexually compatible with each other, I realize that's not enough. Recently, he lost his job. And he has been asking me for money, which seriously is starting to make me feel annoyed. He hounded me for years and made me feel inadequate yet he cries foul when he can't provide. Seriously, I really wish I knew my value. I wish my parents taught me how to value myself. I wish I valued myself more.

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