Healing Journey

Healing is not linear talaga. I find my self crying again because of memories of the past. But somehow, I notice na I'm able to get back to being okay faster compared to before. Napansin ko rin na I'm becoming more logical in reevaluating the past. Andami palang signs that I missed at the first month palang since we started talking: - the sexual jokes - the subtle pushing of my boundaries - the controlling/manipulating words not to disclose anything to my friends - the bad comments about other people At least now I am becoming more discerning because of this bad experience. Pero the me right now, although trying, is still finding it difficult to trust deeply. I'm getting afraid of people trying to build connections with me because I'm not sure if I can catch the signs that they have ulterior motives.