Post Break Up (1 week)

Hi. Idk what to say, but I hope you believe me when I say I no longer cry when I see something on the internet that reminded me of him, especially of how he treated me. I'm not perfect but I think the constant fear of being abandoned at any moment made me struggle to build this relationship. I was trying so hard not to shake the bridges but then again, the silent battles still got me. My silence = his peace. I have gotten to a point where I no longer want his attention. I no longer yearn for his affection. Hindi ko alam how we ended up spending a year together with such downgraded and crossed boundaries. The constant misaligned perception of where the rs was going made me doubt everything. Totoo nga. You cannot repair a relationship with someone who insists the real problem was your reaction and never their behaviors. Neglect, disrespect, and constant insults can slowly break a person. I am okay now. Hindi na ko umiiyak dahil sa kanya. But I still cry dahil naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I let him do those things to me because I was blinded. Ayoko na. Nakakapagod pala. Mas okay ako ngayon. Wala na ko iisipin na ibang tao. Wala na ko inaantay na mag update. Wala na ko fear na maiiwan ako kasi iniwan na ko. And I thought hindi ko kaya. Akala ko lang pala yon. As of now, mas masaya ako sa buhay ko. Idk if Aqua things to but I really love this freedom. ✨🩷