"I Wished I Warned My (Good) Exes"

Never make me feel jealous. I grew up watching my father cheat on my mom a dozen times while abusing her. You will make me crazy and I will cut you off. Check on me when I go silent. I have a wandering and hyper-imaginative mind. It’s either I’m self-sabotaging, going through a depressive episode or battling intrusive thoughts. When I ask you to tell me anything about your day like what you ate or how the sky looks or if you saw any animals today. Talk to me passionately and be graphic. Never dismiss me or make me feel neglected. I am reaching out to you because I am starting to withdraw, lose interest or feel neglected. It’s not because I found someone else. I will never cheat since I value loyalty the most. It’s because my mind needs intellectual stimulation and engagement. I am trying to reconnect with you because I want to fight for our relationship but I am wired to disconnect and disappear. Don’t give me silence because when I go quiet, it means you lost me to my mind.