"My Attachment Style"

I pour everything in my relationships but once I feel betrayed, disrespected or neglected, I start to distrust and turn to seclusion and silence. My dismissive-avoidant attachment style stems from watching my father cheat of my mother so many times that I have turned into a vigilant, protective and distrusting manhater. The way I start to overthink and silently withdraw when I start to feel jealous in my relationships is not normal. It is like a pattern I always do. All my exes have told me how unfair I was for going quiet and they feel lost and troubled. I end up parting from them brokenhearted, never understanding how things just ended so quickly like it did. I sometimes wish I warned them and told them about my attachment style. But I just found out years after and I don’t think any of them would have survived once my attachment style is triggered. Now I continue and struggle to understand myself.