One-sided Love

I love you… but lately, I don’t feel loved the way I know I deserve. And it hurts more than I can explain, because I’m still here...still choosing you, still giving, still trying. But loving you has started to feel expensive… not just in money, but in effort, in energy, in the way I keep pouring into us while slowly running empty. Ako palagi ang gumagastos. Ako palagi ang nag-aadjust. Ako palagi ang nagbibigay...ng oras, ng effort, ng pagmamahal. And I don’t mind giving… but I’m starting to feel like I’m the only one who is. Hindi naman ako naghahanap ng kapalit na eksakto. Hindi ako nagbibilang. Pero sana maramdaman ko man lang na hindi ako nag-iisa sa laban na ‘to. Because love shouldn’t feel like a one-sided investment. It shouldn’t feel like I’m the only one paying the price just to keep us alive. I love you… but I’m getting tired of loving you alone.