Dead Inside

Ako lang ba? Or di talaga normal yung family kayo pero kanya kanya? Family lang sa word and hindi sa gawa? Yung iwas na iwas ka sa family word at family day?? Even family account? Yung merong Family car pero sabihin mag grab car ka na lang?? Then all they care about is the dogs at home? And mas kinakamusta pa yun at inuuna yun pagkain nila? Then meron kayong {Insert Surname} Compound! Yun nasa isang bubong kayo pero nakablock isat isa sa socials and sa number or 3rd party app! Ang irony lang na watak watak! Na meron kayong paghahatiang ari arian sa future na magkakapatid pero ngayon pa lang magkaka away na kayo? Tapos meron kayong apartments businesses then parang dapat nagrent ka na lang? Peace of mind or peace of wallet? I am so sick of this reality I am trying to hide and avoid at the same time in my home existence! Any tips bukod sa moving out or reconciliation how to refocus yung energy na ito? Yes, sa pagdilig ng halaman nakakagaan. Pero meron pa bang mas concrete at permanent step para di to maramdaman?? I hate being vulnerable. And opening naman is prone to judgements and unsolicited advice. Sana I wake up one day wala ng toxic sa environment ko...Please bear with me. Pa-rant lang! Super duper I feel the void! Di kase to basta nararamdaman. Sobrang rare ng situation and emptiness. Na di matatawaran ng kahit na anong retail therapy kahit special someone! Hmpf! End of chat. #FamilyAdventures #NoToToxic