Trauma pt3

When it comes to intimacy, you don’t even realize what kind of spell they put you under. Even the things you don’t want to do… eventually, you end up doing. And every time you say no, he tells you, “You don’t love me that way.” And when what you’re doing is no longer enough, it turns rough. They’ll call you “corny,”(i just change the H to C) when in reality, it’s the opposite. There were times you didn’t want intimacy, and they’d get angry..it became another fight. So you end up doing it just to feel safe. Narcissists have an addiction to “corn” (you know what I mean.) Narcissists get bored easily. Regular intimacy stops exciting them, so they look for something more graphic,something more extreme something that gives them a quick dopamine hit. Kahit may sakit ka or pagod ka kailangan pagbigyan mo sila. "Corn" addiction fits perfectly with the narcissistic personality. It gives them control, stimulation, fantasy, and ego-feeding without requiring empathy or effort. Imagine kahit ikaw ayaw mo manood ng ganun. Kailangan kasi dun mo siya mapapasaya. Ang intimacy sa Narcissist ay hindi love making. Ikaw na addict na sa cycle pati ikaw damay. (Saka mo lang yan maiintindihan kapag wala ka na sa systema nila) English na lang kasi kapag tinagalog mo medyo masagwa pakinggan. Nagiging trauma yun kasi ayaw mo gawin pero ginagamit nila yung love na nararamdaman mo sa kanila kaya susunod ka. Tatakutin ka pa na "akala ko ba mahal mo ako, sige sa iba na lang! " Yun pala ginagawa na nya talaga sa iba ng wala kang alam. Ang pinakamasakit pa nito minsan kaibigan mo pa yung supply nila sa intimacy. (Later upload for next part)