I have this someone...

We've been talking for 4 months now. Ever since we started talking, things have been so easy and peaceful for me. But I’m not yet ready to commit. I even told him na I’m just having fun, doing this talking stage “for fun” because I’m bored. Even though I said that, he remained very consistent and genuine. Whenever I feel upset, he knows it and can sense it. UGHHHH, he's just so good and really knows how to handle me. I never get to sleep or end the night with a heavy heart kasi alam na alam niya paano ako dalhin >-< I'm feeling so guilty 'cause he's so nice!! A good son, friend, cousin, brother, and even a man of God! But I told him na I will only commit after I graduate college, which is 3 years from now pa... Do you get me? I feel like I don’t deserve him. You know that feeling when you finally find someone who's a green forest tapos ikaw naman yung red flag! 😫