I am backing out on our wedding

Ive decided to cancel the wedding (not yet announced) when me and husband have fought. It was really minor but considering that i am bringing him to the altar, I should make sure that he really knows what hes getting into. Even if he already paid half of downpayment. So I made a deal, an exception, an ultimatum. I am requiring him to watch the attachment parenting of Dr. Sears video not once, but 5x. Reason is I want us to be clear and on the same path when it comes to our marriage and parenting. Since baby is the most precious, more than any jewel in the world. And we definitely need to have a happy marriage for it to be fruitful. Yes we already have a child. We are already wedded in civil. But being wedded in the church is really waaaay different. For me it is sacred. Id rather not continue the wedding if he's not ready for heaven (me) than force us to be wedded in church. I would only agree to it if I feel worthy for god's grace. The glory is for the lord, not for us. I dont want to be wedded in church for vain and in shallowness.

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