Breathing but drowning in thoughts

I'm new here and I just wanted to let out some feelings that weigh heavily in me these past few days, I've just started becoming a working student, and I can definitely say it is not easy, because I'm also racing myself with time since my father is already in his 60's and I am still not a college graduate student, and even if I do have a job I feel like it is still not enough to provide for my family and for my school, I feel drowned knowing na I'm the only one who can live up to the expectations of my dad even though I'm the youngest, if isacrifice ko ba ang studies ko enough to find a job with higher salary just to provide for my family, will my sacrifice be worth it? Will I not regret anything within the little time I have for those people around me? Will I make it in life? I just don't know anymore #skl