Marriage-Motherhood feels like a TRAP

Hi girlies! New mom and wife here. Just wanted to open up this topic 'cause these days felt so heavy when in the first place, being married and having a baby should be a journey to be celebrated and embraced. I am stucked, like there are walls around me na minsan pakiramdam ko hindi na ako malaya to even let myself feel sad or tired or atleast grieve the version of myself from the past kasi nagpakasal ka, nagpabuntis ka at dapat naging ready ka. For some, it might come through as "OA naman" and I totally understand kasi minsan I also feel embarassed for sharing my thoughts and feelings as a new mom, a wife, a woman that is experiencing these things firsthand to people that I trusted (My mistake) and thought they would atleast listen pero nauna pang magbigay ng hurtful comments other than asking why do I feel sad? How can I help? Those simple words would mean a lot honestly kasi hindi ko naman agad alam lahat. I'm also trying to figure it out paano maging nanay, paano maging asawa. But I'm being shamed for not using my husband's surname, for not having a baby na chubby despite of breastfeeding to even not having a job atm kasi iyong iba naman daw na mommy bumalik sa work. Trust me, I thought I prepared myself enough to enter this season and yet I'm in the middle of it all and felt so lost. I am grateful for my husband and being a mom to my LO is a gift that I would never regret having. I'm just a human being trying to navigate this new season yet people around me makes it even harder. As if being a wife and being a mom gives someone the right to undervalue you as a person and criticized every decision that you are making. A reality na ang hirap aminin at usually became a silent battle that is being endured by someone like me.

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