Everything feels so loud right now

I feel displaced, a lot of changes happened lately and it disrupted my routine, a lot of outside factors are also causing me a lot of uncertainty thus causing so much anxiety. Everything feels so loud and heavy, SI has been heavy on the mind pero need muna isantabi bc need magwork to pay the never ending bills and to keep up with fast rising cost of living. I don't know how to find my spark again, what's the point of all this 😭