Starting this circle

Hi, I'm MaBo (not my real name). Last night, I got an idea of creating a circle for artists who lost touch with their creativity because I, myself, lost it. I've been a missionary for quite some time now and I love what I do—going to places, making Jesus known to the next generation, but more than a year ago, I saw a vision of a door opening and a desire to go back to the art field rose in me. I was doing art full-time before I said yes to the call of being a full-time missionary, so I prayed for it since then, if God was indeed telling me to go back to the art field and do it full-time. I got my confirmation from Him a few months ago and so here I am, about to file a resignation at my current work. You know what? Tbh, I am nervous about stepping into this new chapter. So nervous that it got me spiraling when I think about it: I wanted to paint but I can't get myself to start. I don't know what to create. It's like I forgot how it is to create. Then it hit me last night: I'm pressured—to create, to put myself out there again in the field, to make this a living, to prove that this decision is right, that I was led to this by God and not just my own will. I cannot create when I look at it as a career to pursue. To create, one must first have joy, one must first love the process of creating itself. These are needed to create something with a soul. Even we are created out of the abundance of God's love. So here I am, creating this circle for people who are in the same space as me—those who are in need of rediscovering the joy of creating, those who wants to fall in love again with art. Being an artist is a calling from God. We have the desire to create because our Creator placed it in us. So take heart, friends, if God called us in this field, He is faithful to restore us as artists. Love, MaBo