i wanna be mad at him.

Just call me N. I had a situationship, it ended because of miscommunication and misunderstandings. I still love him after all and i reached out to him for closure since we're good friends for almost 14 years yet he risked our friendship over his feelings. He liked me first yet I fell harder. We ended our situationship this January and we reconnected again after a month but we both had this 'parinig' sa notes namin sa ig before we reconnected again. And days after i reached out it went so good na talaga samin then he suddenly dropped a bomb that broke my heart. He makes new parinig na and now talking about another girl (who knows who she is). But before that, he made me his HG (homegirl) and even introduced me to some of his HG (whom i got jealous of when we're talking) but when he makes parinig na to this new girl, i left the gc he made where his other HG is there kasi i don't want to see his interactions with that girl i once got jealous of na e. And now, I already blocked him and unfollowed him on my dump account and on my main acc, his account is muted and chats are restricted completely. in short, i cut him off silently. kasi after those sweet talks and everything i'll just become that HG like back to normal na para bang walang nangyari between us. and that made me think na i don't wanna be friends with him anymore or ever again, for me, he is just 'kakilala' na lang. i wanna hate him, i want to stop thinking that he is a good person. i feel bad for myself because he treats that new girl and showing it off in public when he didn't even do that to me. i feel worthless for that. i feel used. kahit magkakilala na kami dati pa lang, Is knowing me more made you loving me less?