Nakakapagod mag isa

You have someone by your side, yet it feels like you are fighting the battles of life entirely alone. You pay for everything; when problems arise, you’re the one who has to solve them. Even when you get sick, you’re left to find a way to pay your own hospital bills. Every time you gave birth, you were the one who settled the hospital fees. I was a fool, yes. It took me so long to realize it—and I realized it at a point where I can't even afford to leave. There is no one to watch the kids, and I can't resign from work because everyone is depending on me. I tried to reach out and express everything I was feeling, hoping for a solution, hoping that this time he would catch me. That’s all I wanted to hear: an assurance that I have someone to lean on when I’m exhausted and can’t go on anymore. But there was nothing. Just silence. He just listened, but gave no answer. He is kind, yes, but I find his effort so lacking. It’s like he has no ambition; he’s just content with whatever is there. Even on special occasions, he won't prepare anything—if there’s something ready, then thanks; if not, sorry. He won't put in the effort for you. I feel like I’m being pulled down. He has grown so used to me doing everything that he only moves when told what to do—and sometimes, he doesn’t even do that.