How little I mattered

My husband cheated on me, the girl told it to me when they were living together abroad. It has been a month now and it still hurts. My husband ended it right there and then when the gurl told me, he let her out of the apartment. Now, we are trying to build our relationship again. No one warned me that it will be this hard. I don't know if I'm healing, we're actually waiting for the girl to tell us if she's pregnant or not. I'm getting crazy. PS: me and my husband are having a hard time conceiving, so he told me that his reason for the cheating is because he wanted to have a child. Isn't it just all BS? But i still accepted him. He said he's choosing me. #Infidelity